Am I expect too much?
The first time I skip my first day class sleeping at home. Couldn’t sleep last night until 5am this morning, causing my eyes pain. Sigh.. It’s 10.30am when my handphone rang and it’s Felix! who call me. I thought it was just a call to ask where I am. But no, Professional Studies class require us to form a group of 8people and he is going to put me and my boy in his group with Tunku! and others, else we will have to form our own group. What? No!!!!! I don’t want, don’t punish me like this God! Enough of grouping with both of them. I said no, end the call faster, and call my other friend but full already. Nvm, there is always a way.That call really wake me up, physically and mentally. It’s sad you know when the only person who called and inform me about this thing is Felix. Where is my other friends? Past time, I would said ok to him, but now, things have changed. Sorry dude, you know what you’ve done. Thanks for informing me and concerning about me and my boy having no group, but I don’t wanna do work for you all already. Enough of being stupid, kind and helping you.
Back to where-is-my-other-friends question. It’s sad you know when none of your friends that you always mix with remember your existence. After 2 months break, they forget you? Maybe this is what I call ‘friends because of situation’ [because we are classmates!]. They find you and be very nice when they need help, after that, fuck off la! Is it that hard to be ‘friends in life’? Is everyone so selfish? I’m so dissapointed right now, I felt hurt [Fine, I'm too sensitive]. I see and treat them as my friends [I mean it, FRIENDS, not 'friends' who just say 'hi, bye'], but who and what am I in their eyes? A small little girl that willing to help anyone and can kena bully by you all? Being too kind can hurt you back sometimes. Sigh.. I shouldn’t put too high expectation on people. Damn! Boy, you are right, people are selfish. And I’m hurt again… Fine, I’m too sensitive.
