Long time…

It’s been a week of no internet connection at home. I have no idea why. I’m dying for I can’t blog, read ppl’s blog, do research, chatting via msn, online banking, check email, what else ya? But well, I can survive with it. Good..

It’s almost end of 2006. Another year pass by and I think this year is so rich of new experience, new people. People come and go in my life, I learn alot from them.

Oh my, writing blog in cybercafe doesn’t feel ease at all. Am gonna continue next time.

Xmas party

Wuhu! I got a book as Christmas gift. “It’s not how good you are, It’s how good you want to be” - by Paul Arden. Wow.. I mean, it’s been a long time I didn’t read or buy book. Hoho.. Thanks anyway.I think today Xmas party is my first in my life cos I don’t celebrate it and the first time I have it here in Malaysia with such a big family. During that few hours, I’m totally shut off from Ovaltine, strategy, advertising world and just have fun. So many things run off my mind but I’m too tired to vomit all out. Gotta get a sleep first.

Tomorrow have to settle some stuff with my ex-houseowner who still owe me one month deposit and this afternoon called me and complaining about me didn’t take away the fridge (which is so damn heavy & unmovable by 2ppl and I’ve told her like a month ago and now only she go check. wtf?) and a study table (belong to the other house mate who left first) and my room’s door which I repair already but she can’t accept it cos need to push quite hard then only can close it. What the F*ck does she want? Always ask this and that and expect people to do everything. Got money also not like this one hor. Kanasai..

Aha, my lil bro sms me this afternoon and said that he saw my trainers’ faces in an article about trainer or training in Aplaus (the one where Yenny works at). There is Shahnaz, Janet and Peter. Yeay! And he told me, wah sis, it’s not a waste that you study there ya, they are famous hor. Muahaha. Silly boy. Am asking him to keep the clipping for me.

I want this and that!

If last weeks it was so hard for me to sleep, I even have to lay on the bed for hours think this think that, then this week the sleepy mood comes by itself and straight away drag me to Lalaland. Is it a good thing? Ah well, at least I can wake up at time and do what I should and want to do.

One thing that I’ve been wanted to do so much is to cut my hair short! and this time is without so many layer. I just wanna get fresh and have a quality time being pamper, someone washes my hair, I feel the massage, the saloon aroma, see my hair being cut and how it gone away, and the most important is I want to look different and pretty! That’s the point why I go to saloon. But yet the result always come out the opposite way. I don’t like the way they blow dry my hair. Sometimes it’s too straight and thin and bla bla bla. I don’t like the finishing, better do it on my own.

And one thing, I’m so sensitive and selective to choose which saloon to go because I’m afraid of the result after they cut my hair. I will absolutely avoid those Ah-so or Auntie punya saloon and prefer guy one. I remember when I was in primary 6, I used to go to this saloon near my house with my mum, it’s modern, I like it. Until one day there is a new one open next to my house owned by an auntie 40sth and my grandma asked me to try cos it’s cheap. So, I went there and it’s not the auntie who cut my hair but an Indo girl. Oh my! In the end, my hair looked so boyish and so short and so out of style that I cried in my room once I went home. My mum knew it and she took me back to the saloon we used to go and well, get my hair cut repair abit la.

Then, when I’m in high school, here comes another disaster. I got my hair straighten and later on I went to this auntie saloon cos my mum’s friend said she just back from London learn this and that so might be good la. But once I get home, my hair’s flow was ruined, erm, doesn’t look nice la. And again, I’m almost stressed out. Well, most of the time I always feel regret and don’t like the new hair cut until it grown a few weeks. As time goes by, I still so sensitive in choosing saloon but learn to accept the result (new hair cut). Maybe it looks awful or not nice at first but later it’s nice.

Christmas is coming~! Wuhu~! Santa, please give me Doraemon’s door-to-go-anywhere so I can go back Medan anytime and go to Brastagi with my friends on Old&New night.

Gillette Ambient

Oh my.. The first time I saw an ambient ad from a product and it’s Gillette! It was placed around the Kelana Jaya LRT station. Actually at the back got one line, asked people to look at the front sth like that. But can’t see it cos it was placed at the corner wall, maybe cos Kelana Jaya LRT station doesn’t have enough space to put this thing and will block the traffic unlike Bangsar LRT station.

Here is the text on the mirror,” Head’s up! Your face is actually the first thing women notice when they look at you.”

Last time they give free sample of this Gillette face facial and now ambient. Oh well, what I get is a reminder to men to wash their face once they get home, with any facial wash they have. And I don’t like the unreal mirror which made your face looks weird.Anyway, thought I’m in for one day only, but Bas workshop does remind me to put what is important in the ad and take out unnecessary thing, cut the crap, yeah. And this 2 days, I realize and feel that ‘hey, an ECD is a human being too, just like me and the other people who lives in this planet who eat, sleep, walk, make mistake, smile, laugh, got feeling bla bla.’ Ok, I know it sounds stupid. I mean, last time I saw him like so unreachable, such a famous ppl in advertising field, so Wow and so on. But somehow, now I feel difference.

Fine, got to get some rest now. Santa is coming to town and so is Ovaltine! Yeay…

My Thought + My Dream

This picture/story/imagination, whatever it is, is still there so clearly on my mind. So I guess I’d rather pour it out for it is just too sweet to let it go. Hehe. So I can re-read next time. There was this sleepless night from my last entry, my mind wandering thru places and time while I was laying on the bed.Til I picture Chinese New Year 2007 at Medan. My boy go back with me (Wah…) and at the airport there, like usual my parents come to fetch me home. They get to know him and talk talk in the car. Then I wonder whether to put the stuffs in my house first or my grandma. I decide to put our luggage at my house, after eat we go to my grandma house which is just 4 house from mine. Then grandma&grandpa get to know him bla bla bla. Lunch time, let him taste mum’s cooking. I feel so exciting and deg deg degan for it is the 1st time I introduce my boyfriend to my family and close friends. When I connect my love one to those that I love too. Oh..

It jumps to the 1st day of CNY, we always go to the other grandma house, she get to know him and asks this that, like usual so kepo. Boring sit inside, me and him walk out and let him see the rail train that is in front of the house. I also see my dad’s sister and family. My uncle back to Medan too, and my auntie comes. Mm well, I think he sees almost all of my family. Then I thought of what food to eat and where. Got Ateng kuetiaw to Kalimantan Misop and kue - kue to Sate padang near my house to GuBakWan to Nasi Lemak which is different from here to Nasi Padang but I scare he can’t tahan the spicy to so on. I’m so confuse which one to eat first cos of we just go back for like a week. Somemore no car to go out. Hmph.. Well, nvm, can walk to the plaza nearby and then Pasar Rame. Not to forget Sun Plaza, Merdeka Walk, Kesawan, Brastagi and Aha, Teh Botol. Ah ya, when breakfast I paksa him to drink it. LOl.. We go to Brastagi with my parents for a day only cos holiday is almost end, go to Mikie play, drink Tebu..I see I’m having gathering with my friends at Sun Plaza and he’s there also but then walk around the mall with my bro. Lots more….

It’s like a movie playing in my mind. I remember and see the place and those people clearly. It was so sweet until the logical side of me come out and remind me of money. Duh.. Hundred bucks for flight fare and we are not financially independent yet. Oh my.. Such a killing in my beautiful story. Hmph.. Then my mind wander to other places with different people and time already.

The fact that he just got his passport makes me think too much, I think. Muahaha.. Funny is, few days before, I got a dream about my boy go to Medan with me. We met so many people from my family to friends and I remember Sun Plaza is inside. It involve talking and interaction with people but I forget the exact thing. The next day in my dream, I stand in front of my house and realize that he isn’t there~! Where is he? And I (in the dream) realize that it’s impossible for him to be there without passport. I’m just dreaming. Yeah, dream in a dream. Hehe.. When I told him about this dream, he doesn’t have any plan to make passport yet, rite boy? That plan was totally surprising one.

Gonna see him in the next 24 hours. Hoho.. It’s 1am, my eyes feel so tired but I can’t sleep once I lay there. What the? Hmphh…

‘OverThin’ sleepless entry

Aiyer.. Not again.. Thought of sleep early before 12 but still awake now. How come I got problem with sleep ya? Lay on the bed for hours. From eyes close til it open by itself. My mind wandering from my bed to KL to Sibu to Medan to foods to 95% to my boy to family to friends to Chinese New Year 2007 to college to Ovaltine. My mind travels thru time and places and balik lagi to Ovaltine and Ovaltine.The world become Oval and thin already. Am OverThin. Zzz…

B i n g u n g

A m a t . s a n g a t . B i n g u n g . dengan positioning statement. Bingung mana yang tepat and supportnya. Sigh.. Padahal barusan I got the feeling already, the first time I feel like, Ah ya this is it! But then, lalang lagi. Oh no.. I think the more I talk and discuss with people, the more b i n g u n g I am. -__-”I don’t like go to bed with this ‘b i n g u n g’ status. Like sth isn’t accomplish yet. And later my mind still gonna work and having mental masturbation there. Syur sendiri gitu loh. Gerem. But.. ihh.. c u e k dulu la.

“Ninabobok oOh Ninabobok.. Kalau tidak bobok digigit nyamuk.. “

Fight for your own thought!

Damn it! I was wondering how and why I can stand for my opinion while I was talking/discussing something with my boy or closer friend&family until most of the time I was so damn fucking righteous and stubborn (what a negative side) and not move like lalang, but I can’t and don’t do that during the group discussion. Damn it! What’s wrong with me?One thing I learn today, I should stand for my own thoughts because those thoughts can actually useful for the group~! But why I didn’t stand and fight for it? I just feel like I didn’t have enough support or evidence. And I suddenly feel down, no thing for me to hold on. Become a kitten. Miauu…

While with my boy, so often that I talk talk talk (make sense or not) and just want him to agree with my point of view and shut him up. Like a tiger with an open mouth gonna eat the victim. Oh my.. I’m so mean. Maybe because I know he will definitely listen to my craps so I got chance to talk talk talk. My best listener. And now I realize that there is a good point that I can pick up from there which is to stand and fight for my thoughts, the possibilities! Ignore the righteous and stubborn part though.

Well, just a thought before go to bed.

I got another thing to worry cos the housemate just come to me and asked whether we are planning to take over the whole house cause he thought of moving out to his friend’s house (not apartment) cos of this and that. Damn it! I just move in about 2 months and have to move again? Oh no..

I need to drink Ovaltine to be more daring taking challenge in this world and life. Oh…