Damn it! I was wondering how and why I can stand for my opinion while I was talking/discussing something with my boy or closer friend&family until most of the time I was so damn fucking righteous and stubborn (what a negative side) and not move like lalang, but I can’t and don’t do that during the group discussion. Damn it! What’s wrong with me?One thing I learn today, I should stand for my own thoughts because those thoughts can actually useful for the group~! But why I didn’t stand and fight for it? I just feel like I didn’t have enough support or evidence. And I suddenly feel down, no thing for me to hold on. Become a kitten. Miauu…

While with my boy, so often that I talk talk talk (make sense or not) and just want him to agree with my point of view and shut him up. Like a tiger with an open mouth gonna eat the victim. Oh my.. I’m so mean. Maybe because I know he will definitely listen to my craps so I got chance to talk talk talk. My best listener. And now I realize that there is a good point that I can pick up from there which is to stand and fight for my thoughts, the possibilities! Ignore the righteous and stubborn part though.

Well, just a thought before go to bed.

I got another thing to worry cos the housemate just come to me and asked whether we are planning to take over the whole house cause he thought of moving out to his friend’s house (not apartment) cos of this and that. Damn it! I just move in about 2 months and have to move again? Oh no..

I need to drink Ovaltine to be more daring taking challenge in this world and life. Oh…