The two of us have just ended another chapter of life, the college life. Graduated as Diploma in Graphic Design, I don’t feel like I am good or strong in design and so does he. Ironic huh? The skill doesn’t reach one standard and so does the portfolio of design work.

I continue the journey and choose the other path which is the Brand Executive or AE, whatever term you name it. I don’t know whether or not it is the best choice and I will success in it. I am just doing what the heart tell me to do right now, what I want now.

For me, it’s not something easy to shift from a Graphic Designer mindset to an AE one. On the first day of my internship, when I was asked to beautify a chart and what software I was going to use, what comes into my mind is Adobe Illustrator. -__-” It was just a simple chart and I manage to beautify it with Ms.Excel though I couldn’t find how to insert symbol inside. A trial and error.

So far, it seems like everything is ok and fine. I got my internship, he still looking for a job, we got a little extra money from parents and he can earn some from the internet. We manage to survive, eat like usual, live like usual, love each other.

But we realize that this is not gonna work for a few months to go. There is always outcome and hardly got income. He can’t always spend his time everyday at home and do nothing, so unproductive. We have finished our study last year mid of November and it’s almost 3 months we are unemployed. Some of the classmates have already employed while some continue their degree either here or overseas. And the two of us, I can say one of the good students in class, most of the lecturer love our works, we went thru training at 95% before, he won Kancil, but unemployed for months. Ironic huh?

Maybe we didn’t do our best to look for a job and didn’t prepare the tool (read: portfolio) for interview well. I believe skill can be improved. Not everyone born with a great knowledge and skill in design, suddenly know how to use Adobe Photoshop and so on. Talent in design or stuffs maybe ya, but not with the skill. I believe it went thru the process of learning, fall down and pick oneself up.

But he was so pessimistic, that he can’t do anything; bad in design, everyone also can have idea, bad in art direction, and so on. And me such a bad girlfriend can’t even manage to convince him that he got that talent and the skill is something that need practice and to be improved. Sigh..

Not want to waste time, he plans to go back hometown after CNY at my hometown. Find a job there or help the family. While me, after the 2 months internship, I have no idea where to go, whether I can be a permanent staff there or not.

Things become so blur right now. We don’t know where we are heading to. We are not sure about the future, about us. Don’t know we can manage the LD relationship or not.

Boy, whatever that gonna happen, we will go thru it together. It’s always better to walk with somebody than alone.

Yes, sometimes I do complain about life, everyday have to walk until I become so dark and my heel crack, most of the time we do window shopping, take free bus to Ikano or the RM1 RapidKL bus to Subang, I can’t simply buy clothes and shoes that I want, CNY is coming and haven’t buy new clothes yet, it’s been a long time I don’t eat at PizzaHut and so on.

Part of me want the happy comfortable life back. But I am ok with the life now. It just that sometimes when I compare my life with other people, the complaining stuff come out. My bad.

You open my eyes to alot of stuffs, from blogging (including the ‘poem’) to walk fast to how to take bus and not always waste money to the taxi, and so on.

Boy, we gonna go thru everything together, and stand on the peak of the mountain and let everyone know that ‘We did it’. We will be SOMEBODY one day no matter we are still in advertising or not. And when someone mention our name to our parents, they will proudly say,”that’s my son/daughter” with a smile on their face. It’s the best thing that money can’t buy.

I am so emo now.