Today is my last day…
I have quit from my internship a week earlier than what it was supposed to be. Two more weeks to go and my student visa will expire. I still don’t know whether directly go back Medan or travel to Singapore then come back with tourist visa and stay for a few weeks while keep looking for a job, if no hope then go back Medan. Whatever it is, I’m going college next week to settle the deposit, fill in whatever form that I need to fill and get my result.I’m so indecisive. One time I choose this path and not long after that I change my mind. I keep thinking if I choose this then what, if I choose that then what. I keep on comparing the choices that I have, the negative and positive sides. I’m too scare to lose both choices. I’m scare I will regret if I choose A and not B and the other way round.
However, sooner or later I have to choose. To face the fear. To decide.
Tonight I just received an sms from the Lady Boss that offer me a job at Medan during my flight back there last CNY. She asked when I will be back to Medan and told me to look for her when I back. The job field has nothing to do with advertising but elevator. Those in Medan Fair Plaza are what they have done. I have to learn how to deal with Autocad. But she said it’s not hard for me to learn. She didn’t want me to do design only but also learn about admin and others. Well, I would love to. Know the more, the better.
I remembered she said, what she wanted is creative, innovative and technology. Those are portrayed in LUCT which is all about innovative, creative those things. Well, at least I know that Limkokwing does have something that can sell. Not bad yer..
Now, I might be crazy for I have the chance but still not sure to take it or leave it. I don’t mind whether the job is in Medan or KL, what I concern is that the job ain’t what I want. It’s not about Graphic design or advertising. Some more I’m not familiar with the software. It’s autocad man!
What Ron said might be true. It’s not hard to find a job. But it’s hard to find a job that you want.
Maybe this is the sign that God gave to me, the lost girl. Maybe this is the path that I should walk through. Well, maybe?
I don’t even know what I want now. No, I know what I want but I don’t have the confident in myself.
I have my torch light now but I need to look for my ‘battery’ to turn it on. So that I can see clearly what’s in front of me and not walk blindly.
