I want more than 24 hours
Gosh~! Living in a big city ain’t an easy thing. Really. Distance and the public transport are enough to kill me slowly. Not to forget walking under the hot sun. Ugh!Today my time is full, from morning til night. I finish everything on time. Just so ngam. From printing the CD cover to go to interview at a very small printing shop at Sogo area. Then come back home and cut the printing, hear a weird unusual sound of cat, go out have a look and I see it’s already give birth. Gosh~! So fast. Just last weekend the house mate put a box inside the cage. No wonder. I continue my day going to 95% meet others and off to client’s office for appreciation night.
And just now my boy have a look at the cat outside, and realize that the weird sound comes from the new born kitten that seems to fall down from the 2nd floor cage to the floor. It’s lying on the floor keep on miau miau-ing with something coming out from the stomach area. It’s pretty tough huh? Been calling since 4pm or earlier than that until now. Had let the house mate know about it, don’t know when he will be back. My boy said I better not see the new born kitten since I’m a shio tiger, else the kitten will die. Well, it’s a myth though, but still it’s scary. I don’t wanna be a killer. >.<
I’ve gone thru another interview as DTP/designer at a very small printing shop at Pertama Complex, beside Sogo. They also own a computer shop, cybercafe and software company. To me Pertama Complex is like Kota Raya in KL or Olympia Plaza in Medan. Yeah, a malay area, smokey, old and small shopping complex that has lost the big name to the new, big, luxury shopping complex in town.
Apparently my rushing mode is on when I agree to start my try out from tomorrow until next week. Cos the visa will expired next week. The Boss is a Chinese, seems to be good, quite open in describing the company, the future plan, the current situation, the task and so on.
The sisters who handle the computer shop seems to be, I don’t know how to say, I just don’t have a good feeling during the conversation for they go from my background, future task to Indonesia, chinese, racism, bom, not safe, migrate, malaysia 2nd home, move back to original country - China, and so on. That frighten me. Really.
After come back from client’s office and get a surprise gift, I talked to my boy while meet with his friends. From telling out what has happened, I get clearer on myself and what’s going on. I realize that I’m too rushing in taking decision. Too many holes in this case. From the environment to the conversation with the sisters that give me a bad feeling. From working permit to the future of this job. Not to forget the salary.
The Boss wanted me to start try out with no appointment letter or any black & white. If after next week, we agree to work together, then only he will apply working permit for me. But.. yeah here comes the exciting part. I have to pay it on my own since he doesn’t wanna take risk if he pays for me and I work for few months only. He will pay back after 1/2 year or a year working with them. It sounds good but so uncertain. Better not to risk myself in it.
Think about it, I’m not that desperate to get a job here in order to stay here. Not that desperate til I’m like have no choice and just take whatever that comes to me. No no no. I have the right to choose what best and can work for me.
So well, tomorrow morning am gonna be responsible and tell the Boss that I can’t take it. I need to be clear and not rushing in taking decision. It has happened for a few times. Never had I thought, me who always analyze things that come to me can be so reckless or whatever terms it is.
The house mate has back and so the kitten is safe. No more miau miau-ing sound. And it’s raining. Everyone can has a good sleep now. Peace.
