When time comes
I can’t delay anymore. I can’t stop the time. I can’t deny from the fact. I no longer can run and hide from my fear.
When I have to leave, I have to leave. When I have to choose, I have to choose.
I will leave Malaysia on 7th May.
Will I come back again? Sure. I will spare the time and money to come back for holidays. for him 
for the friends here. for Malaysia itself.
What will I do in Medan? Get myself a job of course. Yeah, a job, not a career at the moment. Whether it is advertising or not, I’m fine with it.
What about AE? I still want it. But I feel I lack of something. Actually, I’m just not confident. I want to try other thing to build myself before come to it. Or maybe I will hook on my new job later, who knows.
After all, I think I just need to set myself free from plans, certainty, clarity and go with the flow for a while. I’ve been a robotic human who live with plans and certainty, so damn organize punya life. Spontaneous is needed now.
I’ve thrown away quite alot of my stuffs while at Puchong there and just now I have to throw some again 
You know how sad it is to throw something that is not cheap and still can be used but you will hardly use it anymore, and somewhat become useless for you, like the acrylic, crayon, I can’t dump all the so called rubbish to my boy. He has to move out mid of May and still don’t know where to leave all the stuffs. It’s too much for him, himself only. I hate move out.
Seven days to go.
Time will never stop ticking. Kat, this kind of feeling i understand. but not too worry, think positive way. I have move from here to there so many times, leaving friends and all. But while after you settle down, everything will be fine. There’s always a way.
I also start worry about my girlfriend, she also need visa to stay here. No doubt to say, is just have to wait for the luck to get a job. What I can do now is just hope she get a job here. And you also, don’t give up. Jobstreet and Jenjobs is always open. Try hard when u in indo, who knows rite? Take Care ya…next time come back bring some teh botol!hehe
Speaker,
Never give up, great. Hopefully everythg goes well at your side.
I hate farewell. I hate the process of adaptation
But I can’t run away from it.
I will ‘import’ teh botol. dun worry.. hehe