September 2007 archive
Sometimes the quantity of times can’t quarantee you anything. Four years of relationship will mean nothing without quality in it.
When you go deeper and step to a more serious level, you will see more challenges ahead, more principles to combine between two different personality, etc. This is the time when both party have to agree on that principles’ of life. One has to sacrifice.
Commitment is needed and everyone shows it in different ways. The way people shows love is different too.
When one party feels that the other doesn’t give as much as one does, we lost the balance.
Sometimes I can’t even differentiate it whether we are together because of love or because we get used to having each other in our life. That’s why when we are apart, we don’t get used to it.
When I am sick of all those problems, commitment is my pillar that keeps me going on with this relationship. I have my own way to express my commitment and my love. Almost 4 years, it’s not a short time, the ups and downs that we’ve been through, that’s what I think of whenever I drop.
We are, or rather I am, the victim of love… Love is sweet but it brings so much pain.
I’ve seen my horoscope at facebook since last week and now it seems to be true. I need to share, I need to speak out what I feel.
Wuhu~! The “Buka puasa bersama” in the office + factory went smooth. Although there is some problems and chaotic before that, but it ended smoothly. Very tired, my legs and my arms for standing and bringing stuffs from here to there. No time to take pictures. One thing I realize, when it is an urgent time, no matter how heavy the stuffs are and how far the distance is, you will be able to bring those stuffs. The mind just thinking of going to the finishing line. It’s so true, when you have intention, the mechanism is no longer a problem.
My parcel – Unibis biscuit plus Pohon Pinang Marquisa
Anyway, I can say it is successful with more than half of the workers attended it. I heard they said it is better than last year, from the participants to the foods. It started from 5.45pm to 7.30pm. The adults get parcels (2 Marquisa and Unibis biscuits) and the rice package from Goyang Lidah. While the kids get parcel too with 7 snacks plus drink inside and a package of the beloved Grandpa fried chicken – KFC. Everyone’s happy.
My first and last Buka Puasa Bersama with them. A great experience. I need to get some sleep now.
Nowadays I always feel sleepy at work. I sleep at 10.30pm (the latest time) and wake up at 6.30am everyday. Total 8 hours which supposed to be the standard sleeping time. Perhaps I am lack of Oxygen and need to bring a portable oxygen concentrator along. I notice this happens after I came back from the 10days break. The feeling of working is no longer the same. I was supposed to resign before the break which is a month ago, but due to some reasons, it was pending. Now I feel like I am just waiting for the time to come. I am physically in the office but my soul isn’t there.I’m not stress out with the work, but the other side, too relax. I’m so sick of the routine. It’s so weird because I didn’t feel so when I was studying at school. Back then at senior high school time, I had classes from 7.20am to 12.30pm, one hour lunch break and continued the class until 4pm or 5pm, went back home for tuition or studied myself. I can say 7am to 7pm I studied and studied, and the routine was from Monday to Saturday, for 2 years. At that time there was a lot of challenges from getting the highest mark in the class to getting the first rank in the class and so on. I have some goals to reach and when I reach it, I have that satisfaction feeling, recognition from teachers and friends, and sometimes I get reward from parents. But now, the work goes on very plain. Even if the design is approved, I get no reward or satisfaction. The products are sold for the low-end class, I think I only have 1% chance to see it in the market.
I know when I feel like this, it’s time to step out and open another chapter of life.
I always count Monday as the 1st day of the week and Sunday is the last. While I read somewhere the week should be started from Sunday itself. Whatever it is, today is Thursday which means weekend is around the corner and it also marks the end of September.5 months in Medan, I can’t help myself but to compare it with KL, from the development, people, work, salary, environment, and so on. So, let’s see what has changed from me in this 5 months time. Physically I’m still the same, short hair, not tall and won’t getting tall I think, slim *ehem ehem*. I came back as a fresh graduate who was looking for designer’s job desperately. Now, I’m a designer in a printing&packaging company. It’s been 4 months. That’s my job in day time. In night time, I blog for myself and for pay post. A lot more agenda is waiting ahead and I am thinking of doing something more challenging and relaxing at the same time. Yes, I’m getting lazy to go Medan-KIM-Medan everyday, and I know I’ve been thinking and planning to change job since a month ago. No worry, I’ve decided and ready to step further~!
Apart from that, I was in a relationship, I am still in it and will be in it. Long Distance is not easy, man! Thanks God, It is Medan – KL and not Australia or US. I don’t know we will stay like this until when. Hopefully not too long and not for years. We are working hard to reach our dream.
I used to speak in multi languages back in KL, Hokkien with my boy and some friends, English/Mandarin/Malay with others. Now, I speak Hokkien all the time and Indonesia language sometimes. I’m afraid I will go back to the stage where I don’t feel ease to speak in English or Mandarin, that’s when I first came to KL.
After all, I’m fine and in the mood to work hard to reach my goal and our goal.
Just these few days ago a friend of mine asked what were the differences between Medan and KL. For a moment I think and think, KL is the capital city of Malaysia which should make it above in almost everything compare to Medan, the 3rd largest city in Indonesia. Let’s see, KL has a bigger and wider road compare to the road here. It has so many fly overs. Oh, we have one too in Medan. There is traffic jam in KL, Medan lagi worse.
Then, KL has so many tall buildings, towers and apartments. Few years ago probably Medan will lose in this case. But now, our beloved town is building and climbing high to reach the status of Metropolitan city. So many tall buildings and apartments are in progress, JW. Mariott is one of those that has reached more than 25 floors.
Apart from that, I think the housing area is not much different. We have shop houses, double storey house, terrace house, bungalow, or gated house. From the transportation, KL has Rapid KL bus, we have the mini version here named ‘Sudako’ (not Sudoku game though) that has a moving bus station, you can ask it to stop at any road side you want as long as it’s in the route. Food? Nah.. Medan food is the best~! =P A paradise for food lovers.
After all, both city is about the same. Medan has what KL has, only lesser in quantity. I love both places and wish to be at two places in one time. If only Doraemon door really exist. Sigh.