Living in this win-lose world, I can’t help but to always told myself to put myself and everything about me on top of others. Call me selfish. Whatever. I am pulling myself back to the shell, protecting myself from any danger, pain, etc.I, maybe too comfortable with the life that I have now. Too comfortable in my comfort zone that I not dare to step out from here. Not able to lose what I have now and what I can enjoy now. I am just so tired with my 3 years of college life. Give me some time to enjoy this comfy life, can’t I?

I can’t keep on smiling and feel happy everyday or push myself to do so even though am not in that feeling. There is some time when I do feel tired and I want to take a rest in my comfy zone. Don’t bother me, please.

I need time. I’m not ready yet.