Nowadays I always feel sleepy at work. I sleep at 10.30pm (the latest time) and wake up at 6.30am everyday. Total 8 hours which supposed to be the standard sleeping time. Perhaps I am lack of Oxygen and need to bring a portable oxygen concentrator along. I notice this happens after I came back from the 10days break. The feeling of working is no longer the same. I was supposed to resign before the break which is a month ago, but due to some reasons, it was pending. Now I feel like I am just waiting for the time to come. I am physically in the office but my soul isn’t there.I’m not stress out with the work, but the other side, too relax. I’m so sick of the routine. It’s so weird because I didn’t feel so when I was studying at school. Back then at senior high school time, I had classes from 7.20am to 12.30pm, one hour lunch break and continued the class until 4pm or 5pm, went back home for tuition or studied myself. I can say 7am to 7pm I studied and studied, and the routine was from Monday to Saturday, for 2 years. At that time there was a lot of challenges from getting the highest mark in the class to getting the first rank in the class and so on. I have some goals to reach and when I reach it, I have that satisfaction feeling, recognition from teachers and friends, and sometimes I get reward from parents. But now, the work goes on very plain. Even if the design is approved, I get no reward or satisfaction. The products are sold for the low-end class, I think I only have 1% chance to see it in the market.

I know when I feel like this, it’s time to step out and open another chapter of life.