Spare your time with your friends
A close friend of mine called me and asked me out last night. The problem is we don’t have ‘foot’ to go out especially when the sun is going back home and the moon is coming out. Somewhat somehow she found a guy friend to come along. Hearing from here and there, I somewhat scared that both of them will talk on their own and leaving me alone aside. For sure, I didn’t know that guy at all. Perhaps there was something going on between them while I know that my friend is attached.So my evil mind went on and on. When she called me and knew my reason, she was mad. Her words strokes me,” Kat, I asked you and not others because I know you are not like them who think that there must be something going on when I go out with a guy. You understand that feeling.” and on and on she kept going on. Yes, I forgot that I was once in her shoes and now when she needs me, I had an evil thought on her pula. Wtf? What kind of friend am I?
I know that she is alone here, far from family. Friends are what she can count on. I felt alone before, housemates were what I can count on. But when they went back home, I was all alone by myself in the foreign country. Goddammit I hate that moment. Where to cry out, where to share my stress, where to share my laugh and so on? All I had was only the 4 white walls to listen to me. It’s enough that I experience it myself.
