I should have taken my bath an hour ago but here I am still online with pajamas and towel around my neck. Oh… I’m just feeling lazy to drag my feet to the bathroom which is just less than 10 steps away. The raining outside adds up to my laziness. I should be hiding under the comfy bed and blanket plus the warmth of the love. But I am not sleepy anymore and and.. Sigh. So many ‘but’.

Anyway, I was checking my emails like usual until somehow I had the urge to click on the emails on 2004. That was our first time being apart for months, went back to the hometown, well, college’s holiday. That was also a very unstable year where ‘earthquakes’ happened so often between us, from the heavy one that could cause tsunami to the light one that just made us dizzy. Read the emails back then, I could see where we were then and now. There were questions that look stupid now, of whether I was your type or not, about the unforgettable ex, and so on. Bah! I sounded stupid and naive at that time. Whatever. We keep moving forward and the world could now see the change. The feeling grows. The wound is healed. The foundation is getting stronger that we are ready to build our dream house.

Fuck with the past. Everyone has it. It’s our choice to still live in it or walk away from it. I choose the last one. Walk away, build our own moment, and be happy. Three years plus and still counting. Don’t ask me when is the anniversary because everyday is one, that’s what he said. So sweet.

It’s good to stop from keep-on-moving and take a look back of our life and surroundings, once in a while. We might see what we don’t see normally. Like what the late Mary Alice Young in Desperate Housewives said.