A hug to overcome the day

I don’t know it’s because I am not used to the place or I just have so much to think. What I know is, I can’t sleep. I want companion. Someone that I can talk to all night long until I fall asleep and can let go half of the burden and thinking.

I hate the lonely night, the silent tears, the painful heart.

I hate it because I can’t get what I want.

Que Sera Sera

Que Sera, Sera,
Whatever will be, will be
The future’s not ours, to see
Que Sera, Sera
What will be, will be.

February is ending soon. There goes the festive season (of Chinese New Year and Valentine’s day). It has been only 2 weeks since the KL trip with the family. Tomorrow I will be going there again. For how long? It depends on what will happen later. At least one month.

If I am employed, maybe I’ll come back here to pack the rest of my stuffs. If I am not, I will guai - guai come back home and pia with my freelance work while sucking up the pain of LDR. Nothing to lose here.

I am 99% done with the packing thing. I managed to stuff in my clothes and other stuffs in one luggage only. I’ve weighed it, it’s only 13kg.

Looking forward to tomorrow’s flight. It’s so coincidence that I’ll be in the same flight with the highschool friend. But she will continue her journey to Macau.

Bye Medan.. Hi Malaysia…

When you dream of losing teeth

Prior the departure to KL, I couldn’t sleep well since the last 2 nights. This mind just kept wandering here and there, full with worry, messiness, etc.

This morning when I was brushing my teeth, I remembered I had this dream or rather nightmare last night. A row of my right hand side upper teeth broken off. And somehow my eyetooth was very sharp and long. I tried to put them back to the place but I couldn’t.

Then I asked the dentist there to help me. It was night time and there was sort of outdoor meeting or party. The dentist went off to do something with the teeth. Meanwhile I continue eating without my right hand side upper teeth. Sort of weird. After that, I can’t remember the rest of the story already.

So why do I care so much about this dream? Well, the thing is, dreaming of broken off teeth or detached teeth means someone in your family or relative will be facing death. It is said that, front teeth means it’s the people who is close to you; i.e. parents, siblings, grandparents, etc. The side teeth means your quite far relative. What worry me more is, in my dream it wasn’t only a tooth but teeth which is at least 4 to 5 in a row.

Sigh. sigh. sigh.

Your ex has get over you when..

His primary email with your name as the password is no longer usable and accessible.
- He wants to get rid of whatever that can remind him of you.

You no longer received ‘Happy Valentine’ sms from him. And maybe no more ‘Happy Birthday’ sms too. But you will still receive ‘Happy New Year and Merry Christmas’ sms.
- Valentine = love celebration = lovebird. New Year & Christmas = celebration = everyone. See the difference?

You won’t find this ‘I am still single’ - hidden statement coming from him during your conversation or sms. Instead, he is inserting his new girlfriend in it.
- so damn obvious man..

He said he will assured his new girlfriend that it’s fine for him to have lunch with you. But he never texts you back since then.
- So the girlfriend is more powerful than you now. He is no longer under your ’spell’.

When you realized that, you feel a bit of disappointed. Not because love is still hanging in the air. But because you have lost one of your FANS. You feel good knowing that someone is still after you, even though he has gone through the painful break-up. It’s all goes back to the ego.

The minute you are clear, you realized it’s a selfish act. You can smile and breath freely. There is no longer guilty feeling because you have moved on while he was still hanging there and hoping. What you feel now is a relief. Finally, that chapter is ended. You can close the book and store it in the library with the other story books of your life.

Hide, the coward act

We hide when we don’t want to face something. Hiding is said to be a coward act. But heck, I wish I can hide at the mean time. I don’t want to meet people that I know. I don’t want to hear them asking the same questions; How are you, what is your job now, freelance ah? you don’t plan to look for a job meh? Haven’t found job ah? etc. I don’t want to give the same answers over and over again. It is extremely annoying and stressing me.

I am in a changing phase, a temporary situation, I ain’t settle down yet. And they keep on asking about this about that, never ending questions, every time I saw them. So what if I am employed or unemployed? Does knowing the fact makes any different to them or their life?If they say, it is because they CARE, ptui. Nah ..l.. I can differentiate what is care and what is being busybody. Only a few is sincere. The rest is pat poh-s who don’t deserve to be called FRIEND.

I think people ask because they wanna compare whose life is better than whose. Negative perspective, but whatever. I’ll off from this town next week. Say good bye to those pat poh. I’m continuing my life, knowing what I want and what to do, without the need to ‘present’ my plan to those pat poh-s. If they are so free, they should spend more time reading the term insurance one by one.

Cap Go Meh (2008)

So fast Chinese New Year is coming to the end. Chinese New Year this time is different from last last years for me. Angpows came to my hand without me going to the relatives’ house and greet them. Yes, no bai-jia, no cookies, no talk cock talk with the relatives.

We normally do that on the first few days of Chinese New Year. Because public holiday is from Sa Cap Meh / CNY eve to Che Sa / 3rd day of CNY. After that, everyone goes back to the routine and wait until weekend comes to visit relatives and friends.

I don’t know why but I feel that the Chinese New Year feeling or aura is faded from year to year. I don’t see people comes to other people house anymore. Ok, not anymore, but it’s getting lessen. I think it’s no point to buy or bake cookies ourselves if it will end up in our own stomach and not the visitors.

The historical City, Malacca

Some people even prefer to go overseas than stay in Medan, with the reason: there is more of Chinese New Year mood and celebration overseas. Well, we do that this year. We ‘escaped’ to Malacca and KL from Sa Cap Meh (CNY Eve) until Che Go (5th day of CNY). The flight was almost full house or maybe it was. I saw my friend’s parents and mum saw hers.

What I can say is, yes I did get the Chinese New Year feeling because most of the Chinese shops and restaurants were closed! -___-” First time ever I saw Sungei Wang was so quiet and at least half of the shops (ladies clothes, gents clothes, shoes, accessories, baby clothes, etc) were closed. It doesn’t happen on Hari Raya or Xmas or New Year but on Chinese New Year. Duh..

Anyway, Happy Cap Go Meh~! Enough of angpows and slacking around. Time to plan and make more bucks. More than what I can do now. :)t

Action game: Diner Dash 4 Hometown Hero

It’s been 4 weeks since I download Diner Dash 4 Hometown Hero with crack. It works just fine. It has 2 edition, Gourmet and offline.

All the while I’ve been playing the ‘Offline Mode’ where there is 5 stages. Every stage is divided into 10 level. Now I’m at stage 5: Florence’s Groovy Disco, level 3 out of 10. And the goal is freaking 25.000!!! I’ve been playing this level for several times and still can’t reach the goal, not to say the Expert Goal. Duh.

Anyway, this is my first time to play until stage 5. Because I never finish Diner Dash 1, Diner Dash 2, and Diner Dash 3 Flo On the Go. The game became harder, I’ve been repeating the same level for so many times, so I decided to give up. Diner Dash 4 is much more interesting, I don’t know why. I just want to finish it.

So, how do I survive the previous 4 stages? Chaining is the hint (doing one thing in a go; i.e. collecting money from a few customers then only cleaning up all of the tables). Besides that, knowing well about the behavior of customers really help alot in dealing with them, so they won’t get upset too fast and lose the mood which means lose $$$.

Reading the info that pops out before the new level starts, is important. It tells us about the behavior of the new customer and other info. It may sounds like an unimportant intro, but if we think again, it is not. I google-d and found a few good pages about tips and trick for Diner Dash 4 Hometown Hero. A conclusion from the every levels intro.

I’m off to continue the game.

Earthquake in Medan

“Hey, earhtquake, is it?”, yelled my bro from the 2nd floor. Time was 3.10 sth like that. I was doing my work with the laptop, then only I realized that it wasn’t me whom felt dizzy. The earth is ’shaking’. EARTHQUAKE, man! Soon, we came out from the house and so did the neighbors. I think it lasted for about 5 minutes.

During that time, our house phone rang and my mum went inside to pick it up. It was my dad.

Dad : “Eh It is earthquake now, why you don’t go outside?”
Mum : “-___-” I am standing outside. Phone rings, so I go in to pick it up lo.”
Dad : “Oh ok. You go back outside then.”

-___-” Thanks Dad for calling. One hour after that, the boyfriend called and asked about it. Fuiyoh. I never know he can be so update one. Well, everything is alright. But it was quite strong enough to left the dizzy feeling.

Meanwhile, my auntie was brave enough to stay at her office, 4th floor. She said, she used to be like that when earthquake happened. -__-” We never know how strong it can be, so go out from the building is still the best way, I think.

From the news (Okezone), it was known that the central of the earthquake is at NAD (Aceh).