I had a dinner with the girls last night at Famous Cafe. Gel just came back from her vacation in Bali and brought souvenir (read: dress) for each of us. I tried it at home and as expected the dress is too loose for me. -___-”

After dinner, we headed off to other restaurant cause the two of them needed to attend their friends birthday. Twenty one years old celebration, still in college, laugh out loud like no tomorrow, young faces without wrinkles, all those things just made me felt so out of the place. I never realize that 2 years difference (in age) can create such a gap. *gasp* Pardon my sensitivity. All this because I am hitting 23 yo. Today.

This is going to be my last birthday with the ‘status:single’. Yes, consider single now, cause in the formal form, there is only 3 status: single, married, and divorce. There is no such thing as: in a relationship, it’s complicated or engaged with – you think it is facebook meh? So, erm.. start from next year, I’ll be celebrating my birthday as someone’s wife.

When the girls and Yeha knew about this BIG news, they threw the same two-questions to me:
1. how was the W proposal?
Well, nothing biggie or romantic scene like in the movie. We discussed about this for days so there is no certain he-proposes kinda day. But boyfriend did fold a ring using RM10 note and.. the careless me lost it! >.<

2. why so fast and so sudden? (the BIG day is less than 5 months from now)
No, we are not expecting Wong Jr. This is just a matter of time. Sooner or later we’ll tie the knot. Besides, we have been dating for.. not just 5 weeks or 5 months.. but 5 years, which is long enough for us to know each other (and still continue to learn to know each other). We have gone through lots of upside down in life and sharing happy sad moment together.

And, we have gone through 2 years of LDR. Not a short time. LDR is not for forever and it is definitely not ‘healthy’. It has to have an ending. We might still standing strong after 2 years of LDR, but we are not sure if things will be the same after 3 years or 4 years. There is so many not-happy-ending story when it comes to LDR. We don’t want to make the list longer.

M stuff has come across our mind 2 years ago. We have been more than ready, mentally. But we always tell ourselves that we are not financially ready. We can’t separate M and W. And, W is not cheap. You have pre-wedding photos, wedding gown and suit, reception (MC, singers, dancers, souvenir, etc) yadayada. That’s why some people decided to just do ROM (Register Of Marriage) only, let alone the reception and photos.

So, we confronted our fear (of not financially ready), I convinced myself of not having a fairytale kind of W day, we set out the budget and fit our need with the budget. The preparation has been so far so good. My kepo neighbor knew the news from the MC and congrats my Mum already (Thank you, auntie). My parent, auntie, uncle, grandparents are so happy for me. Even my 9 years old cousin also happy for me, actually all she wants is to have chocolate ice-cream as the dessert on reception night.

That’s it. If you were to really look into our story, this BIG news doesn’t really pop up out of a sudden. And.. I actually didn’t feel like breaking this news to any of my friends (except my aunties, uncle, grandparents) until the BIG day is about to come.

First, I hate having to explain why and what and how yadayada over and over again. One person asks, I will be more than willing to share over a cup of hot chocolate. Five people asks the same thing at different time, it starts to annoy me. Ten people asks the same thing at different time, I will turn into a ‘tiger’. Once you see my ‘tiger’ side, you will regret for waking ‘her’ up. And, someone tend to ask in a confronting way as if I owe her an explanation, which I hate very much and has started to make distance since then.

Second, some people are very funny one, they will get angry or feel offended if they weren’t invited. Ruang di hati terlalu sempit bo. Since we are on budget, I can’t be possibly inviting all friends that I know from kindergarten to high school. So, well, I thought the best would be keeping it first from everyone? Put aside this issue, I just hope that the news will NOT circulate outside, other than the circle of my current close friends whom already knew the news. Now, why am I explaining all this thing? -__-”

In Cinderella story, W day marks the ending of the story. But for us, when W day ends, it marks the beginning of the M life that is full of hopes. Anyway, Happy Birthday to me!