I noticed for the past few days I can’t sleep well or sit still, my mind is kind of messy, keep on worrying about the upcoming trip + work although everything is in place, etc. No words can describe this feeling. This is just.. I don’t know, certainly not the pre-holiday mood that I usually have. Not relax at all.

Weird cause hey, this isn’t the first time I’m taking leave from work (on holiday with no access to laptop & work). Besides I’m going to be away for freaking 4 days ONLY, to the neighborhood country which is just one hour flight. Certainly not Europe, not Alaska, not USA.

It keeps me from wondering why and I think I’ve found the answer.

First, it’s my first time delegating my work to other people (in this case, to my husband). Not on design work part, but on dealing with clients, what needs to be done, what’s not, basically the project management. I always scare other person might not able to meet my expectation/certain standard, yeah even to my husband working partner (we do separate personal and working line ) cause we have different style of working & , hence this is a huge leap for me. #TrustProblem

Secondly, it’s my first time going to other country that I’m not familiar with without my husband therefore I’m so worry that things might go wrong although I have done many research on the place. If I mess up and he is around, I know I have someone to rely on. #DependantProblem

Anyway, at the end of the day, it is just a family trip, not exam and there is no mark if I arrange the day in a messy order or take a wrong transport. Just relax and enjoy, Kat! Of course before that, finish your to-do-list first.