That is when a woman at my age asked,”What? You’re Indonesian? You can speak Mandarin? Indonesia also got Chinese ppl meh? Cos you know, I thought mostly are.. Malays, and.. work as maid. I have an Indonesian maid at home. Don’t tell me you’re one. Haha..”

She gave me the big eyes which is like saying I-can’t-believe-this. While I gave a big -_____________-” , raising my eyebrow and sigh.

Ok, so what’s my issue here?

First, having people wondered how can I (as a Chinese Indonesian) speak Mandarin is a normal thing already. Many asked before and I tend to think they’re stuck at 90s era, outdated to the max. We all pick up language, no matter what race & nationality we are, kay?

Second, the question “Indonesia also got Chinese people?” is like asking “Malaysia also got Chinese people?”, Duh.

Third, I feel quite upset on this part, when she related Indonesian with maid/domestic helper. Yea right, there are many Indonesian coming here (Malaysia) to work as domestic helpers but doesn’t make all Indonesian = maid. My home-country ain’t maid’s producer, we have many talents back home.

This is like touching an elephant’s trunk and then say that elephant is so thin and long like a snake. The same thing like asking Sarawakian,”I thought you all live in tree house.” Big DUH!

Fourth, “Don’t tell me you’re one? haha”. Yea right, so funny. So I was a poor girl worked as a maid, found my prince and married. Cinderella can have a better life now.

Moral of the story, when you want to strike a conversation with someone you just know but don’t have better things to say, just shut up. And, have an open-mind that the world isn’t flat.

Speaking of a house to call our own, quite often people said this: “Why don’t you guys just buy blablabla apartment/terrace house? Better use your monthly rental to pay house loan.”

Eeekk, to me that is like asking a woman to married any Mr. Nice Guy out there or just simply use any mini rubber mats from whatever vendor.

We don’t settle for less when it comes to love. We don’t simply pick partner that doesn’t ‘click’ with us. Cause we aren’t looking for any companion but one that will be with us through thick and thin in life. Long term, see that.

I think it’s the same thing when it comes to house.

So far we haven’t found one that really ‘click’. We’ll wait.

Have you ever had a day, where you feel your life is just right you can’t ask for more? I just had it.

I don’t know why, a smile raises out of a sudden and I feel that my life (love, work, etc) is just right. Kinda like the feeling of finding Mr. Right. Or it could be my mind that is playing with me. Or my emotion due to the ‘monthly visit’. Or the result of eating the above sweet sour candies, which gives me illusion.

Come to think of it, so I don’t own a luxury car or iPhone4 with designer iphone cases or iPad or a house to call our own blablabla, but.. I have a car, cheapo phone and PC that do their job, also a cozy shelter. Everything is just right, yeah, *assurance*.

Dream comes true is… when I found out that my teen idol is going to hold a concert in the city where I live! And, instead of a poor high school student or a freshgrad looking for Veterinary Services Jobs, I am now a working adult that can afford the concert’s ticket.

It’s an Omaigawd-I-can’t-believe-this moment. When they held a concert in Jakarta on late 90s and early 2000, I was sitting at my home back in Medan, wishing I could be there. I surely not gonna miss it this time around, or else I’ll carry the regret of the 15-years-old-me.

But one awkward thing, instead of going to the concert with my friends, am going to bring my husband. Har har..

Yes, we (hubby and I) sort of made that deal recently. Cause we had enough of giving I-have-no-time excuse and keep on delaying. So we thought setting a deadline for ourselves will eventually push us to do things.

Last year we told ourselves that we’ll have a few new start-ups this year, fulfilling our many more passion in life. Okay, read the sentence back, I said “A Few”, not just “One”. Oh so ambitious eh?

I even wrote that down in my new year list early this year. But instead of “A Few”, I wrote “At least another”. Lowering my expectation and give myself rooms to not feel bad if I don’t have “A Few”.

Well, look at us now. It’s August, half of the year is gone and we only have less than 5 months for 2011. Yet we don’t have any new start-up yet. All of them is forever in progress. Not good.

I tried to comfort myself, at least I did restructuring both sites that we have now and the business plan is clearer for the future. But it doesn’t cover the fact that we fail to launch new stuff.

So, this is the month of making things happen. Either now or keep on delaying.

My progress so far, creating coming soon page. I made two kinds, but decide to stick with the soft approach instead of the bold one. This is something that I’ve been wanting to do since 2 years ago, but the I-am-not-good-enough mentality killed it.

This post itself is to remind me that I have decided to take my 1st step. Keep this kind of momentum and bring it til the finish line.