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I am getting lazy to blog due to the limited internet here. I am using Dial up currently so two bills to pay. Hmph. I’ve consider to change to Speedy from Telkom. The 1GB – Rp.200rb sounds good. ARGGHHHH~!!! I feel I am being tied in a small room, hardly can breath and move. I wish Speedy unlimited will be much much cheaper later on. I miss Streamyx despite all the weaknesses it has. Ouhh….I am soon gonna be attached with new job. Pretty soon.

On the other side, I hate LD to the MAXXXXXXXXX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! From the emotion to the $$$ in order to have a good communication. And Simpati Telkomsel just gave me new problem. I can’t sms to him since last week. It’s been days, almost a week. WTF?!? What makes it worse, everytime I call to the call centre 116, it ends up busy. I successfully connected to the operator once and the call disconnected by itself. Wtf?!?!? I’ve tried sending msg with my bro and mum’s number, end up same result. And I don’t know what’s wrong. Aduh geram..

Happy belated Valentine day~! This is our 3rd Valentine. Life went on like usual on that day. What makes it great is that my boy gave me flowers~! And it’s handmade! I love and appreciate handmade stuffs alot. So sweet of him.

It’s my second week of having internship. I screwed up sometimes, well still in the learning process mah. Writing brief or job req isn’t easy! Not to say my grammar first; the clarity, the message, the words that I choose, all haven’t pass also. Duh.. But the working environment is fun, friendly, like a family.

And now I realize how precious the time I had in my weekend. I appreciate Mr.Saturday and Mrs.Sunday alot more now. Hehe..

Less than 1 hour I will flight back to Medan for Chinese New Year and he will be there on saturday. Yeay~!

The two of us have just ended another chapter of life, the college life. Graduated as Diploma in Graphic Design, I don’t feel like I am good or strong in design and so does he. Ironic huh? The skill doesn’t reach one standard and so does the portfolio of design work.

I continue the journey and choose the other path which is the Brand Executive or AE, whatever term you name it. I don’t know whether or not it is the best choice and I will success in it. I am just doing what the heart tell me to do right now, what I want now.

For me, it’s not something easy to shift from a Graphic Designer mindset to an AE one. On the first day of my internship, when I was asked to beautify a chart and what software I was going to use, what comes into my mind is Adobe Illustrator. -__-” It was just a simple chart and I manage to beautify it with Ms.Excel though I couldn’t find how to insert symbol inside. A trial and error.

So far, it seems like everything is ok and fine. I got my internship, he still looking for a job, we got a little extra money from parents and he can earn some from the internet. We manage to survive, eat like usual, live like usual, love each other.

But we realize that this is not gonna work for a few months to go. There is always outcome and hardly got income. He can’t always spend his time everyday at home and do nothing, so unproductive. We have finished our study last year mid of November and it’s almost 3 months we are unemployed. Some of the classmates have already employed while some continue their degree either here or overseas. And the two of us, I can say one of the good students in class, most of the lecturer love our works, we went thru training at 95% before, he won Kancil, but unemployed for months. Ironic huh?

Maybe we didn’t do our best to look for a job and didn’t prepare the tool (read: portfolio) for interview well. I believe skill can be improved. Not everyone born with a great knowledge and skill in design, suddenly know how to use Adobe Photoshop and so on. Talent in design or stuffs maybe ya, but not with the skill. I believe it went thru the process of learning, fall down and pick oneself up.

But he was so pessimistic, that he can’t do anything; bad in design, everyone also can have idea, bad in art direction, and so on. And me such a bad girlfriend can’t even manage to convince him that he got that talent and the skill is something that need practice and to be improved. Sigh..

Not want to waste time, he plans to go back hometown after CNY at my hometown. Find a job there or help the family. While me, after the 2 months internship, I have no idea where to go, whether I can be a permanent staff there or not.

Things become so blur right now. We don’t know where we are heading to. We are not sure about the future, about us. Don’t know we can manage the LD relationship or not.

Boy, whatever that gonna happen, we will go thru it together. It’s always better to walk with somebody than alone.

Yes, sometimes I do complain about life, everyday have to walk until I become so dark and my heel crack, most of the time we do window shopping, take free bus to Ikano or the RM1 RapidKL bus to Subang, I can’t simply buy clothes and shoes that I want, CNY is coming and haven’t buy new clothes yet, it’s been a long time I don’t eat at PizzaHut and so on.

Part of me want the happy comfortable life back. But I am ok with the life now. It just that sometimes when I compare my life with other people, the complaining stuff come out. My bad.

You open my eyes to alot of stuffs, from blogging (including the ‘poem’) to walk fast to how to take bus and not always waste money to the taxi, and so on.

Boy, we gonna go thru everything together, and stand on the peak of the mountain and let everyone know that ‘We did it’. We will be SOMEBODY one day no matter we are still in advertising or not. And when someone mention our name to our parents, they will proudly say,”that’s my son/daughter” with a smile on their face. It’s the best thing that money can’t buy.

I am so emo now.

This picture/story/imagination, whatever it is, is still there so clearly on my mind. So I guess I’d rather pour it out for it is just too sweet to let it go. Hehe. So I can re-read next time. There was this sleepless night from my last entry, my mind wandering thru places and time while I was laying on the bed.Til I picture Chinese New Year 2007 at Medan. My boy go back with me (Wah…) and at the airport there, like usual my parents come to fetch me home. They get to know him and talk talk in the car. Then I wonder whether to put the stuffs in my house first or my grandma. I decide to put our luggage at my house, after eat we go to my grandma house which is just 4 house from mine. Then grandma&grandpa get to know him bla bla bla. Lunch time, let him taste mum’s cooking. I feel so exciting and deg deg degan for it is the 1st time I introduce my boyfriend to my family and close friends. When I connect my love one to those that I love too. Oh..

It jumps to the 1st day of CNY, we always go to the other grandma house, she get to know him and asks this that, like usual so kepo. Boring sit inside, me and him walk out and let him see the rail train that is in front of the house. I also see my dad’s sister and family. My uncle back to Medan too, and my auntie comes. Mm well, I think he sees almost all of my family. Then I thought of what food to eat and where. Got Ateng kuetiaw to Kalimantan Misop and kue – kue to Sate padang near my house to GuBakWan to Nasi Lemak which is different from here to Nasi Padang but I scare he can’t tahan the spicy to so on. I’m so confuse which one to eat first cos of we just go back for like a week. Somemore no car to go out. Hmph.. Well, nvm, can walk to the plaza nearby and then Pasar Rame. Not to forget Sun Plaza, Merdeka Walk, Kesawan, Brastagi and Aha, Teh Botol. Ah ya, when breakfast I paksa him to drink it. LOl.. We go to Brastagi with my parents for a day only cos holiday is almost end, go to Mikie play, drink Tebu..I see I’m having gathering with my friends at Sun Plaza and he’s there also but then walk around the mall with my bro. Lots more….

It’s like a movie playing in my mind. I remember and see the place and those people clearly. It was so sweet until the logical side of me come out and remind me of money. Duh.. Hundred bucks for flight fare and we are not financially independent yet. Oh my.. Such a killing in my beautiful story. Hmph.. Then my mind wander to other places with different people and time already.

The fact that he just got his passport makes me think too much, I think. Muahaha.. Funny is, few days before, I got a dream about my boy go to Medan with me. We met so many people from my family to friends and I remember Sun Plaza is inside. It involve talking and interaction with people but I forget the exact thing. The next day in my dream, I stand in front of my house and realize that he isn’t there~! Where is he? And I (in the dream) realize that it’s impossible for him to be there without passport. I’m just dreaming. Yeah, dream in a dream. Hehe.. When I told him about this dream, he doesn’t have any plan to make passport yet, rite boy? That plan was totally surprising one.

Gonna see him in the next 24 hours. Hoho.. It’s 1am, my eyes feel so tired but I can’t sleep once I lay there. What the? Hmphh…